October 13, 2009

10:28
Fuck, tired at class on break. Just finished grubbin.
Last night, fuck besides the whole dinner and what not but went to top of the world with Shannon and jordan. Honestly best relief i've had yet of being up there. Thanks for the night guys.



Today, fuck ... Football today feelin like shit. But FUCK it gonna tear shit up anyways. Don't really feel like speaking my mind today, well its not that I don't feel like speaking it just I can't really speak it, my mind is not functioning well at all, so FUCK it!
10:35

1:35
Friends-where would I be without them. There is a difference between homies, friends, and acquaintances. A homie is shit a cool guy, you kick it with em maybehh a lot but you really don't know them, their history and what not. A friend is someone you know personally, there to help you out with problems. Always kicking it, hitting you up, you get what you give in return, no homo, hahaha. But you understand my point HOPEFULLY. An acquaintance is someone you know of, or you have spoken to but you don't really kick it together. So FUCK it, he's just there or they're just there. Understand my point? Where would we, or I be without true friends. The ones ALWAYS there. The ones to help pick you up when your at rock bottom. Or the ones to not let you hit rock bottom. I'm glad I got a select few like that. Because they're the ones to help me out with all the bullshit that goes on in my life when I'm out and I don't wanna be home, am I right? They're the ones that are gonna give you a good night when you need it. They're there to pick you up. I love it.

But don't you hate ... The fact that you do supposedly have a good friend like that but it fades away. I personally can't deal with that bullshit, because shit, when I do a lot of shit for someone, I hope they have enough dignity and like respect to give it back because shit, its just how I want to be treated...


Treat others the way you want to be treated. Its true. Even tho its some kiddy saying, its true.
1:45
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10.12.09 ...

1:15
Hahaha, funny how bullshit happens. Actually its TOO funny. I'm tired of bullshit lies to be honest.


Contradiction-without lies life wouldn't be the same, I mean that in both ways good and bad. Because without opposites where would we be. Opposites are actually a necessity of life. Just read this out, no matter how bad I hate something or highly dislike someone or something, what and where would I be without it. Say you hate math class, where would you be without it. I swear my fucken blackberry notepad has been coming in handy. Thank goodness I know how to text fast, because shit, I wouldn't be able to be writing this blog! Anyways, yeah ... Without all the bad in the world their would be no good. So having opposites is actually a good thing.

I've been becoming pessimistic lately, and I think blogging and letting SOME of what's on my mind out can relieve my stress and take weight off my shoulders. I just got out of class it was alright same ol bullshit, I actually prefer being at work because the environment is dope. Work - internship is the same bullshit, so suck my dick. Only difference is I don't get paid, and I'm actually getting taught. And its putting me ahead in school, so I'm happy I got this opportunity interning.


My 18th birthday wasn't what I was expecting it to be, but I still had fun. I passed out, ain't gonna lie. The night before I chilled with Jordan and Chris and I'm glad even if it was just them two. Nobody really wanted to kick it I was bummed because shit, I'm finally the big 1 8 . And errybody always assumes I'm older and shit. So FUCK it! But yeah ... My birthday was okay ... Had some family shit sunDAY. And chilled with Chris and jordan sunNIGHT. The actual day of my birthday I wake up and I treat myself to shots of patron. 5 shots in the morning, hahaha! So head out Shannon picks me up head to longs, we start drinking. Hahaha. Pretty dope. Than chiefed and shit, I was FUCKED up, I ended up passing out for 3 hours. 12 - 3 in the fucken afternoon. These fuckers wrote on me and shit. So whatevers hahaha! I didn't get mad at all, so fuck it! But we end up going back to my pad and eat. Chilled there and went to guppies later on that night. It was dope. I'm glad errybody came out and shit to chill, and those who greeted me. But the most important people couldn't call me or bust missions to see me? I guess ... Idk ... I feel sometimes I don't get back what I give ... Idk if its karma or wtf. But I just feel that way.
Missing my family is pretty hard .. Today, this morning though I had a funny ass conversation with my mom about the weekend. Can't be really specific but it was hilarious, I made my mom crack the fuck up. The thing about my mom is she hits me for no damn reason. Slaps me in the back of the head, its like wtf! Hahaha. Its not one of those mean slaps or angry, its the type of like, "your so tangahh" I think she got used to it because I never complained and she has that type of mind "my son is a football player" hahaha. I ain't complaining but its pretty funny! Hahaha. Anyways, that made my day, hopefully the rest of today will be dope. For sure! Thanks for reading tho, I must admit this is pretty long. Later days, headed out with Shannon and jordan in a bit when I get home. Miss these motherfuckas, I'm on the train right now. Bout to be home.
1:39

2:00
So i've decided I'm gonna just blog through my phone throughout the day. And at the end of my day i'll just post it. And the way I'm gonna do this is i'll just track my times when I start and stop my blogging at that time. Smart eh? Hahaha. So got home, Alex is here. Yeah, pretty dopest dope. Headed out with Shannon, jordan, and Claude. Hahaha, this blogging shit is dopest dope, well the fact I'm just using my notepad. Pretty smart eh, don't you think I'm clever? :)

10:30
Not all guys are assholes. Straight up this part I'm not tryna be cocky or an asshole...
Why does every girl think I'm that type of guy to fucken play them. I am really not that type of guy to fucken pull that bullshit. Everyone assumes that I AM that type of guy. If you honestly get to know me. I'm not that type of guy to pull that hit it and quit it bullshit. If I was, don't you think I would've at least done it by the first week of knowing you. So wtf, stfu. I honestly am not that type of guy. You don't know me, and if you think I'm that type of guy, fuck off, don't even talk to me. I'm THAT type of guy to not pull that bullshit. I'm at top of the world buzzin with sober ass Shannon and jordan. And a drunk man's words are a sober man's thoughts. So FUCK off, this is also another stress reliever for me ...
10:34
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siblings ..

2:10
I don't care what you think about me. What bullshit you got to say.

I live a complex life. I don't like many people knowing exactly what goes on in my life, but those few that know a lot about it, they KNOW what I go through EVERYDAY. Who I deal with daily, what I deal with daily ... Its starting to actually break me down, i've always said "just put shit aside and fuck it ignore it, don't let it get to you" I think its starting to get to me ... One of the situations of the straw that broke the camel's back. Whatever the fuck that saying is ... Honestly, I can and am an emotional guy ... If you know me ... I AM the type of guy to hold in everything ... I'm just that type of guy ... In which I think is because of how my family was and is growing up ... My mom and dad were never married. I have one real brother-Justin, one half brother-Jonathan, one step brother-Joshua, one step sister-Joanna. The way we like to look at is ... There is no step no half, were all real siblings ...

The fact is ... I'm right in the middle. Jonathan, Justin, JAY, Joanna, Joshua. Not only that, Jonathan lives on his own living his life ... Justin is now in the army ... Joshua and Joanna used to live with my dad in which now they live far as fuck ... So getting shit tossed around in that ... I have NOONE to really talk to, my dad is more of an acquaintance than a father and my mom is ALWAYS at work ... Growing up I thought oh damn I have a lot of siblings ... So I got that feeling I always have someone around ... But I got shot down ... I really don't have anyone ... All along i've been thinking .. The closest person I have to me is my brother Justin and my mom ... And I'm never with them, especially since Kuya Justin is stationed in Alaska.


People really need to appreciate the fact they ACTUALLY have siblings and have them there to help em .. I honestly wish I had that ...



I'm finally 18 I have no brother to take me out ... Strip club, morongo? I was super hyped that someone my uncle or somebody else would show me w'suhpp with it .. Just to even check it out, don't get me wrong, its not so appealing to me ... Just the whole experience with that person ... Or group ... It honestly idk, just makes me sorta depressed ...


I have a very random mind, and speaking it is very hard ...
A ride on my bike clears my head of stress and its great ... People ask me why the fuck you wanna go to so and so ... And its honestly because I wanna ride my bike ... It honestly helps me get through the day better ...
2:24
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tbh ..

i really miss her .. i dont blog anymore because im one to hold in a lot of shit, and even when i blog i hold in a lot still .. so its just like fuck .. blogging was something i did a lot when i had time back when i was with her .. when i was with her, so much was better .. now im a fuck up even more than i was ... im honestly just mad depressed right now ... straight up mixed emotions, being sadd real real real sadd , and still having some fucken anger in me .. fuck this ... she thinks i've turned into an alcoholic ...




definition of jack joaquin ... FUCK UP .

Ontario Swimming

Game !

Me: When you gonna let me hit it ?
A***:i dont think you can
Me:Oh yeah, why not?
A***:idk can you ?

Me:When you gonna let me hit it ?
C******:Hit What?
Me:When are you and me gonna handle? ;)
C******:LOL whenever you want
Me:oh really?
C******:sike!

Me:When you gonna let me hit it ?
C******:Whaaat ?
Me:When are you and me gonna handle? ;)
C******:I got thaat .. this jay ?

Game :]

LET ME GET AT THAT .
Text a girl or even guy asking, when they going to let you hit it ?

Post your conversations/replies !

lmfao ! to funny .

Lakers !

fcken great weekend !

i know i haven't blogged in so damn long, this is crazy. well this weekend has been fcken great though. friday came down, spent time with kristine. :]

friday - came down, met at her house like at 2 something ? idk. but yeah, chilled went out picked up my little sister at my dads pad at like i would say around 4:30, or so? chilled with eman ! went to starbucks and what not, i had to pick up some fcken caffeine because i quit smoking .. yeah, holy fck is it hard ... but yeah. after starbucks went back to her pad, and we all were chilling for a bit, i was eating because i was hugnry as fck as always :] had to drop my little sister back off, so went back there chilled talked to my stepmom, kristine and my stepmom had a longass conversation about nursing? wtf o__O well yeah, headed back to kristine's pad chilled, watched our movies and what not. eman's drunkass coming over like midnight or something like that idk? o__O haha. i just slept over, pretty much stayed up all night. woke up in the middle of the night, because kristine kept hogging up the damn blanket ! -____- lol, barely had any sleep? well not as much, i needed it too. but i really dont care, it was great waking up next to her :] and falling asleep with her in my arms, because usually it would be on the phone like "good night" yeah. c[x

saturday - woke up, headed out to jaysons. because my dad and my little brother and i were going dirt biking and out to ride the quads. so yeah, headed out. haha, first time riding my dads quad, his banshee is a fcken beast. mad torque and super reactive. straight pulling on thaat, not even kidding. haha, so basically it was the beginning of the day. took the banshee out for its first run, and i was getting used to it and everything. and i wanted to see how it reacts to it when i wanna bust a b*tch on it. i slam on the rear brakes, and i was holding the clutch getting ready to pop it and peel out while turning .. and i didn't let go of the clutch and i straight rolled the motherfcker. hahaha, yeah ... was a b*tch. rocks almsot ate my whole forearm up, but whatever. haha, i got used to the banshee the rest of the day. straight killing it. i love that quad, it's a beast. haha, just the rest of the day was fcken tight. haha yaeh, my little brother can ride thass f'sho. on his POS 80cc bike. hahaha, it's all good it'll pull for his size.

anyways, after that we went to my uncle's house in santa clarita because celebrating late mother's day? my stepmom was there, and her side of the family and what not. it was chill, i was tired as fck, exhausted, arms all dead an sh*t. took a shower there, than headed out back to la. got dropped off at kristine's! i fell asleep watching 50 first dates, oops >.< & i just eventually ended up crashing there again because i was so fcken exhausted and tired . samething, stayed up all night again.

sunday - headed out idk around 9 or something ? it's my grandpa's birthday, i love you papa. RIP. yepp yepp, LAKERS SMASHED NIGGGGA ! thass w'suhpp ! i already knew w'suhpp, nobody wanted to bet against me. fck the laker hater niggggas ! anyways, im done tired. head out, peass nigga !




& also, my brother left to the army alraedy. i wont see him til christmas, nigga is in kentucky. training to be a tanker. keep this motherfcker in your prayer's even though its just training, in today's fcken world, never know what can happen. i love you kuya justin.


be easy, - jay

another day going bad ...

basically, so was supposed to go to DMV and what not, but cant get my shit ..
fuck ! and now i feel one of my wisdom teeth rippin beginning to rip through my gums. FUCK! and i might not be able to chill with in eagel rock tomorrow with kristine because of te reason i cant get my permit bullshit man ! fck fck fck fck ..


hopefully blogging can just help me get over this crap, honestly, just popped a vicodin. half of one at least, WEAK! i need a whole thing damn it .. FUCK FUCK FUCK !

What body part do you wash first?
I was my face first, but i do a thorough job. from top to bottom, than do it all over again, after i wash my car if i wash my hair. :]


keep it simple, done deal. fuck me ! -__- bad day, peas .

so far ...

spring break is going pretty good. spending it with my gf thass f'sho :]


right now i am at my mom's work. im finally going to go to DMV today, take my permit test. yeah been lagging it but whatever, and than after the DMV going to go to get my tux for kristine's prom and my prom. Boring as fck over here, just sitting on the computer, looking at the DMV pamphlet, and damn it, i still need to get thaat engine for my hachi. she's real sad, just sitting there HEARTLESS in front of ryno's pad .. :'[


anyways, hmmm can't really recap on everyday of whaat i haven't posted for a while. Just been chilling with kristine everydayyyy. monday came in the morning, went to her house like around 1 after she got home from dress shopping with her mom. Than ran some errands and whaat not with her mom, picking up Christine, and than picking up Kasy, and what not. Cold stones etc etc. Her mom met my mom, yadiyadiyadaaa. Chilled there the whole night monday. Tuesday, chilled with kristine again :] yeeee niggga yeeeee ! haha samething for wednesday :]

and today is thursday, just running stuff with my mom basically.
Plans for the rest of the week are ..
Friday ( tomorrow ) - wake up wake up, head back down to eagle rock. chill with kristine, dont know what were doing that night or day or whatever.
Saturday - Disneyland california adventure niggggga ! thass w'suhpp :] with kristine and her cousins.
Sunday - Head back home, and help my uncle at his pad do stuff for his yard.
And that's a wrap for spring break. Well spent with my gf :]

I got mad picturesss of me and her, but dont feel like posting em :]

peas in the middle east, word to the motehrbird. haha.
&it's a wrap for now. be easy, - jay

pictures from sunday? haha.